Everlong

I'm not having the best time on placement here, and a lot of has to do with the fact that I'm not taking advantage of what is here. I'm not stepping up is basically the gist. I'm gonna let another day pass before I put something up.

In the meantime, I feel like putting up a blog so maybe I'll talk about music for once. I'm not a huge follower of music but my preference is largely toward rock. I lean closer to "modern rock" but really, I listen mostly to mainstream music. I'm really too lazy to go out and search for whats out there. The songs I'll bring up here are mostly slow ones because while its nice to totally rock out, right now I'm not in the mood and slower songs just seem to have a way of sucking me in.


Glycerine- Bush
Seems to be about relationships and uses the substance glycerine as a metaphor for the volatile nature of relationships. For me, it feels like you're looking back on a situation and you feel numb. There isn't an emotion attached to it, and its just so hard to explain whats going on yet it makes sense what has happened.

4 am - Our Lady Peace
Really simple song but I just felt a lot of raw emotion come out of it. Also makes me think about those times where you stay up in bed until, yeah, 4 am, just obsessing about something. Could be about anything. You may not even know in this case, but for whatever reason you toss and turn.

Waiting - Green Day
I didn't like the video that went with this song because it seemed to scream "party video!" Really, besides the poppy sound it doesn't have anything to do with partying. It seems like a straightforward song about getting a big opportunity and being nervous about taking it. Maybe you'll take a chance and succeed, maybe you won't even take the chance at all... You just have a level of anxiety that you're not used to and at least in this moment, it paralyzes you. I guess by the more upbeat nature of the music you're supposed to pop out of it?

One of my favorite songs is from the Foo Fighters and its titled Everlong.
Most cranking version of Everlong ever is here. Its not a slow song, but the music just seems to speak to me, if that makes sense. The song seems to imply that things happen too fast. You want to hang onto one moment, because after that, or even before that, everything falls back down to Earth. The music gives a feeling of excitement that you can rock out to, but to repeat myself a bit, the speed gives a sense that its all happening to quickly and will be over too all too soon. It slows down in the middle to let you savor it, so it can hit the chorus one last time before ending.

Its not a happy or sad song again, but you just long for that moment. You've waited for it and its passed, so you relive it. Again and again, you think of that one spot of time that has implanted itself in you for the rest of your life. Alright, now I'm just repeating myself...

These songs all are fairly simple, but raw. There is uncertainty, and each contain some lingering in the past. And to me, they're just there for you to feel.

The Name Game

I enabled random posting again, just in case someone that I don't think reads this, actually does. Than it would be nice to know if they have anything to say. Anyways, just a brief comment for this blog. For those that don't know, my cousin has impregnated his girlfriend. Rather than get into any of that, I'm going to choose my mom's reaction and go straight to the "awww a baby!!!" While at Kdays we had conversations about what the kid's potential name could be. Kevin has managed to come up with Mojo... Mojo Boon? Someome please top that...

Klondike Days and that Mechanized Dragon... Its not Capital Ex Dammit...

For some reason I'm really looking forward to going to Klondike Days. Maybe its because I'm in Camrose for the rest of my summer and when I ask about things to do, walking trails and Wal-Mart top the list. But lets move this blog forward by thinking backward. ..

My very very first memory that I can actually recall is walking in the scorching sun and trying to make it underneath that bridge that connects the formerly known as Northlands Coliseum to the Agricom. Yep, we're heading off to Klondike Days! I can't remember a lot except those little cars you could drive on those old wooden tracks. Except you didn't really drive, but it was still super awesome. Another childhood memory I have is the ride "Dragon Wagon." Its a tiny kids roller coaster that travels in a loop and has two whole bumps. As a kid, this ride scared the shit out of me as it seemed to move me much faster than any previous experience. That damn dragon, too intense. (On a side note, in a random fit of rage, I threw away my favorite childhood book, Dragon in a Wagon... oh what have I done?!)

Ah, and there is always the Midway games. I declare myself to be the Whack-A-Mole champion! This is the only game where I aways win, but the downside is I have to keep spending and beating other people to win an stuffed prize I don't want... anymore... Well the amusing part is when anyone decides to play against me, despite knowing I have and will again without doubt hand them utter and horrible defeat. Awesome.

Then there is the food. Corndogs!!!... Three dollars for a small one?? Aww crap... why must I fall for you, delectable fried food. You are sweet and salty... how?! And those classic times people have taken on Monster Dogs. Man...

Finally, my favorite part, RIDES!!. At one time, I was not a fan of rides. Yep, these sky high dragon fast dizzying machines freaked me out. But now I've embraced these mechanized spin machines, because where else can I get such excitement? To me its like performing any really good jump kick except without having to put hard work and train for it. You get an adrenaline rush and thrills galore! Right now, all I want is to get strapped into the Fireball and feel the wind and G's as the ride goes. And lets not forget the rides that clearly state: "Heavier person on the inside." Seriously, don't ignore that instruction and don't be the jerk that flares his elbows out. ...Heh....

Again, I'm looking forward to having fun at Kdays and I'll end off by paraphrasing Mitch Hedberg, "Weeeee! That is what people say when they are having fun. They refer to themselves and other people."

The Rose City

So I've spent a full day and night now in Camrose and ... I am bored. Anyways, lets go over some things during my stay thus far:

I settled in on Sunday and went to bed early. Somewhere around 11 I started hearing music from my neighbour. I start hearing symphonic type music and wonder, I wonder if thats a girl next door. Cue the switch to AC/DC! Oh yeah, I'm staying in the dormrooms of a bible study college. Seriously, crapdammit, You have to blast AC/DC at 11 pm?? Finally I knock on the door, quick intro, "hey I'm trying to get some sleep, your music is too loud" and he goes oh sorry, and thanks for coming to me instead of complaining. I head back to bed and the musc is turned down but I realize that the walls are seemingly as soundproof as lego bricks. Okay fine, I don't know how well Lego contains sound, but I could still hear the AC/DC. Dammit, its not even the Back in Black album. Eventually I get to sleep...

So I wake up for my first day at my new placement. For my first day I would be actually be driving with my preceptor (supervisor) to Viking, which is about 45-50 minutes from Camrose. Yay... As it turns out she has an orientation day due to a job she has started a while ago and hasn't been able to make one of the orientation day for a while. The point is, the day was pretty much a snoozefest and I didn't really do anything.

Once that part of the day is over, I eventually have to make supper for myself. Now, the kitchen I have access to is across the street from me. Its not a great situation, but whatever. I was not able to successfully adapt to the fact that my materials adn the kitchen was seperated by so much space. I kept forgetting materials everytime I walked to the kitchen. "Oh crap, I forgot the pots *runs back*... oh crap, I forgot the butter *runs back*.... and is the inside of this fridge actually warmer than this room?" Well, I don't feel that I really cook anyways. I just sort of heat up some foodstuffs, and unite them in a bowl...

And now, here I am. I actually went to the visitor center and asked what is there to do in Camrose. The response? There are musuems around, if you like those. My preceptor said that Camrose is marketed as a retirement community as well. Its a slower paced lifestyle than Edmonton and it is filled with some nice scenery and walking trails. But walking is for suckers...le sigh

Anyways, time to head off before some more great but not appreciated at night because I'm fucking trying to sleep hard rock is blasted by my dorm neighbor...