Saturday, March 27, 2004

Hm... so why did I get a blog? Well, at the time it seemed to be an excellent way to express myself. Hopefully, it would clean up my ability to convey whatever it is I want to say and allow me to speak in my "voice". It also lets me tell people about whatever I did without having to repeat it, that is if I blog the event. Unfortunately, I think I've failed this blog.

I never actually did too much "expressing" myself through this. Not at all close to the level some other people have. Our PM Paul Martin is trying to be big on "transparency". He basically wants people to feel that they can watch the gov't and know whats going on. Well, I guess I thought maybe that would happen with this blog and that I would open up. Of course no one is going to completely open themselves out on an online web log, but I hoped I would be able to let a little bit out. I can't seem to type out certain things for fear of being judged, although I know its friends that come by and read whatever shows up here. Still...

Anyways, enough of that stuff. Time to really complain about myself. I'm really dissappointed in what I did today. First off, I didn't get to learn CPR which sucked. Basically tried to drop in but couldn't since I had no cheques on me, and they couldn't take it because they were't supposed to handle the payments, had to be done through the University. Oh well... not a major biggie since I'll have other chances. Good news is I did get some studying done for my three lab finals this coming week. Yay! Now time for the crusher. Bad news is that I must admit to myself I have "fallen off" from studying at home. I can't seem to stay focused at home, whereas at University its slightly better. I was able to work at home last semester, but now it's an inability to take charge at studying. Today I played Starcraft, just wanting to play for a "bit". One game, lasting half an hour would be great. I FUCKING GET SUCKED IN FOR HOURS. FUCK. I'm supposed to be over this. It's frickin crunch time for everyone now, but I decide for myself to piss away valuable time. I can't even try to justify this with it being time to "unwind". Theres better ways for me now.

Alright, so a few of you guys know I gave up fast food. Well, now I'm going to give up videogames. Screw the playstation, N64, GC, and computer and so on. I'm so friggin done. I'm not going to uninstall the games since that would punish Keith and he doesn't deserve it (he eats poo by the way)... Sigh, a large portion of my life was spent gaming and now I'm just gonna chuck it. Perhaps when it is July or August I will retract this, or those one time "marathon game sessions". Yes, it's a loophole exception type thing but I cannot rescind the following statement until at least July: I will give up video games. I'm even gonna pass when someone says "you wanna try?" If I can't follow this, frick, I'm screwed anyways.

I feel a bit better now. Not much else to say now except Keith and I must do 70 pushups. That is all.

No comments: